On Motherhood…

Lately, I have been having a lot of thoughts about motherhood and my role as a mother and as a working mother.

I changed jobs last year because i wanted to work at a school setting with more time off.  And i got that wish because the last two weeks, i have had Fridays off.  And we have several other breaks coming.  Those are the days i am so thankful i work in such an environment.  However, there are other days i question whether i am doing the right thing at all…by being a working mother.

The days when Baby Pancakes is sick and he is laying with me.  And it’s 6:30am and i have to get up to get ready, because i give myself ONLY thirty minutes to get out of the house, and he is clinging to me because he is sick and wants to cuddle a little bit longer.  And i have to rush to get ready.  Sometimes, i cuddle with him a little bit longer.  And i am late.

And if you know anything about working in a school setting, you have to be there before the students get there.  There are perks…but there are also some things that are nonnegotiable.

The plight of motherhood right now is real and painful.  And this morning….i admitted to myself that “being a working mother sucks…sometimes.”  I love working and doing what i love but just sometimes…i wish i could make my own schedule and do what i really wanted to do…and be able to take care of my baby and contribute to the household the way i want too.

And then sometimes i think, if we had another baby then maybe i could quit my job to take care of my little ones.  And then i remind myself that right now, my reality is being a mother of one that works.  And sometimes if i have to be late (the bad employee) in order to cuddle a little bit more…then that’s alright.  Work can wait but my baby needs his extra cuddles when he needs them.

In the meantime, i will use this space to vent and feel sorry for myself.  And remind myself that i am not the first working mother to feel this and unfortunately i won’t be the last.

Question of the Day: If you are a working mother, what do you do on days like these?

Motherhood

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About Mrs. Pancakes

I became Mrs. Pancakes on 4.23.11! I became Mama Pancakes on 8.28.12! And our lives were forever changed! I call myself Mrs. Pancake because my man loves him some good and fluffy pancakes! The Pancake Life chronicles a life that is happy, inspiring, motivating and lived to the fullest! Why don't you stay a while and enjoy in the The Pancake Life!
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14 Responses to On Motherhood…

  1. jj says:

    Gosh this is a hard one. I can certainly understand. I feel sometimes that I would rather be a stay at home mom but then I come to work and also get fulfillment from being here and knowing that I am contributing.
    The best you can do is what you are doing. When it calls for it, spend an extra 10 minutes or even an hour with him. No one ever says ” I wish I didn’t spend so much time with my kid” but I hear people all the time talking about time wasted at work.
    Take heart. Your baby will one day understand that your hard work is directly contributing to his well-being.

  2. Breanne says:

    I stay home and sometimes I am so jealous of working moms. Girl, their is no perfect solution. As you know, we must just water our own grass!

  3. Allie says:

    I have to laugh because I’m currently writing a blog post on the exact opposite of this!! I’m a SAHM and I’m losing my mind!! Thank you for reminding me of the benefits. One of them is definitely being able to cuddle with them for as long as I need to when they are sick. Hang in there!! The grass is always greener…

  4. Kita says:

    I am a SAHM and I want to work but I think I find a balance because I work from home but still can be at home and around the kids. There is no easy solution either way.

  5. Heather says:

    I know other working moms who struggle with this, too. It’s a decision I think about a lot when considering the options for having kids in the future. I know stay-at-home moms who sometimes wish they could go to work to take a “break,” too.

  6. toi says:

    I feel for you, because I know how it feels to have a sick baby who wants her/his mother. it’s so heartbreaking to leave but I think it’s the best choice to work right now, the time will come when you will be able to be home with him.

    a big hug 🙂

  7. That is such a tough dilemna. It is always difficult to leave a sick baby. I understand both sides of this because I took time off to be a stay at home mom and loved it, but then started missing adult conversation and working. And as a working mom, I always feel sad when I have to go to work and my little one is sick.

  8. Splendor says:

    I really empathize with people that struggle with this decision to stay home or not. I was blessed to stay home three years with my last and wouldn’t trade it for anything but it isn’t always possible. xoxo