Good Morning Ladies and Gents…although the I doubt if any gents actually read my blog but you never know. The question of the last several months has been “do you know what you are having?” And i have been saying “no” because i really don’t know.
And there won’t be a gender reveal party (although they look and sound amazing) until Baby Pancakes 2.0’s birth day! I can’t wait to meet the little one!
I know my family especially doesn’t understand why you wouldn’t find out the gender. But truly for me, it wasn’t even that i wanted to keep the gender a secret from family and friends. I truly and genuinely wanted to be surprised.
And i have also been having an anxiety about possibly having a girl…the idea of a girl Baby Pancakes truly scares me because i feel like there is so much more pressure for me to impact my daughter in a way that is life changing. There are definitely the same pressures with raising a young boy and especially a young black boy BUT i honestly do think that as a mother, having a daughter is so much more challenging emotionally! And i don’t know if i am ready mentally and emotionally to mother a girl child. Plus we already have a boy and Mr. Pancakes and I have done a great job so far and i know we will with a girl too…but the anxiety is alive and well.
Whichever way the gender reveals itself…i KNOW that i am ready to meet my little one. And all i know is that i want him or her to be healthy and happy and know that they are loved! I almost cried today when Baby Pancakes kissed my belly (so sweetly) and said “It’s my baby sister!”
Mmmhmm…they say little kids have intuition but we shall find out soon!
Question of the Day: Would you want to know if you were expecting?